Late Nite Eatings
This is Maggie - Chris' wife...my first post. Everyone knows about the normal pregnancy symptomps, right? Nausea in the first trimester, fatigue, uncomfortableness, etc. Nobody tells you though that somewhere around your ninth month of pregnancy you'll wake up at 2a.m. (yet again) to go to the bathroom and too hungry to be able to go back to sleep. This is clearly survival of the "fetus"! Who eats half a bagel and a yogurt in the middle of the night? My yet unborn son dictates my every move - how and when I sleep, what and obviously when I eat, how I walk (or maybe I should call it "wabbling" at this time), how long it takes me to get in and out of the car, etc.
Our 16 month old baby girl, Maya, is not oblivious to the situation - she senses stress, fatigue, and points at mommy's huge belly almost with a malicious smile. However, she's not yet willing to give up her right to be the "only child". Yesterday we went to TJ Maxx to get out of the house a bit and escape the ever pursuing enemy of depression. As we're walking down the eisle, I'm juggling wiping snot with whatever I can find in the bag, giving her animal crackers and juice on command only to still have the loudest child in the store. Luckily she's still at the age where everyone thinks she's adorable. I'm thinking, "just wait a couple of months when the cute charm is replaced with throw-myself-down-on-the-floor-pitching-a-fit-moment, and there will be nothing adorable to look at". You know those kids (and their parents). We've seen them everywhere: at the store, down the street, at church....and we've all thought the same thing: "My kids are NEVER going to do that", or "I'm going to be a better parent than that"! And then the inevitable happens - you realize that no matter how hard you try and how much you pray and how long you spend reading books on parenting, it's your child throwing a fit because you can't control them and you are the one wanting to sit down in a public bathroom and just hide for embarrassment!!!
Would we change where we are in life though? Not for a million dollars! I think we've both learned more since becomming parents than we had in years. Those realities that you know in your head all along (like you're not in control, dependence, surrender, the power of prayer, etc.) that are so hard to practice all of a sudden begin to tear down walls in your life and you find youreself stripped of much of the crud you've been holding on to - it's almost like a painful metamorphosis and your hope is that at the end of the process what comes out is actually worth looking at. So at 2:30 a.m. I have to believe that my life counts and my late nite eatings are feeding the next hero of the 21st century!
Our 16 month old baby girl, Maya, is not oblivious to the situation - she senses stress, fatigue, and points at mommy's huge belly almost with a malicious smile. However, she's not yet willing to give up her right to be the "only child". Yesterday we went to TJ Maxx to get out of the house a bit and escape the ever pursuing enemy of depression. As we're walking down the eisle, I'm juggling wiping snot with whatever I can find in the bag, giving her animal crackers and juice on command only to still have the loudest child in the store. Luckily she's still at the age where everyone thinks she's adorable. I'm thinking, "just wait a couple of months when the cute charm is replaced with throw-myself-down-on-the-floor-pitching-a-fit-moment, and there will be nothing adorable to look at". You know those kids (and their parents). We've seen them everywhere: at the store, down the street, at church....and we've all thought the same thing: "My kids are NEVER going to do that", or "I'm going to be a better parent than that"! And then the inevitable happens - you realize that no matter how hard you try and how much you pray and how long you spend reading books on parenting, it's your child throwing a fit because you can't control them and you are the one wanting to sit down in a public bathroom and just hide for embarrassment!!!
Would we change where we are in life though? Not for a million dollars! I think we've both learned more since becomming parents than we had in years. Those realities that you know in your head all along (like you're not in control, dependence, surrender, the power of prayer, etc.) that are so hard to practice all of a sudden begin to tear down walls in your life and you find youreself stripped of much of the crud you've been holding on to - it's almost like a painful metamorphosis and your hope is that at the end of the process what comes out is actually worth looking at. So at 2:30 a.m. I have to believe that my life counts and my late nite eatings are feeding the next hero of the 21st century!
posted by Maggie at 11:17 PM
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